I have some good news and bad news. starting off with the good news, i've been rewriting my comic and although i don't have too many ideas at the moment, i'm confident that i've started on a much more solid basis this time compared to the other times. My concept is not ridiculous anymore, I finally dropped that stupid ass name ('eyes of jupiter' and jupiter has nothing to do with the comic...aight) and my art has gotten significantly better. It'll take me over a year to write the whole thing and i am sure that i won't be able to put out all the illustrations i need as quickly as i want, especially because school has been killing my spirit and (bad news) my life has been utter shit recently. I feel lonely as always and there's always things that remind me of people i hate, or people i hate coming into the lives of my friends almost as if they're trying to piss me off on purpose. Ugh, i fucking hate human beings. Anyways, i haven't done much progress on reading that dorian gray book and now i also gotta read a shitty book for my english class. atleast we're gonna work on sculptures now, i guess. this blog has become the "complaining" section of the website.

Today's my birthday and I'm just as miserable as every other day. As always, i wish i was motivated, constant, i wish i had way less shit to do and problems on my back and i wish i was able to pursue art fully. Oh to be ignorant and born into money, i feel like i'd be way less interesting,or troubled, if things were like that for me. Anyways, happy birthday to me and to everyone in the world who has their birthday on the same day as me, atleast i got a lot of hbd wishes and it made me feel less miserable. I'll update the site soon with cool stuff and new content for 731steel, although that old thing is still deep in the works.

I'm a week away from my birthday and I've never felt more miserable, although i'm trying to keep myself distracted and my girlfriend is really supportive and nice to me, i love her. I've been rewriting my main comic, working on some art and concepts, dyed my hair purple and red and finally decided to pick up a book. I thought 'The Portrait of Dorian Gray' would've been a good first serious read, since all the books i've ever read were for school related stuff and i never seriously got into them. A while back i read 'reunion' by fred uhlman (for school related stuff) and although it was an okay read i was really dissappointed by the author suddenly talking about being a zionist and giving money to israel. it's also important to mention that this was his first book ever published(at the age of 70 or something) out of two books and it immediately became a success. Anyways,i've only heard good things about Oscar Wilde and there's no risk of him being a weirdo, so i'm sure this book won't dissapoint me anytime soon. I'd love some book reccs...

I finally added blog posts to this section of the website and i am so excited!!!since this is my first serious post, i'm gonna blurt out random stuff about my life.Lately it's been kind of rough, i don't have many friends and it feels like my gf is the only one supporting me, which must bereally though for her and i hope i can give back to her as soon as possible.this whole thing has also really distracted me from art and demotivated me a lot,but i'm trying to get back on track.i just hope it gets better.also, i need to fix that damn index page.